“Now the whole problem of my life is the question – am I that same one who turned back sorrowing because he had many riches? Will I irritate my Lord all my life, crying: “Lord, am I still following Thee?” as if I didn’t know?
I learned one thing, at the Forty Hours at the Convent – two weeks ago tomorrow night. I can have one prayer – to belong to Him, to be able to renounce the whole world and follow Him. I say that prayer now: when it pleases Him, He will show me what to do. When – not next year, every next instant. If I love Him I will hear.” (February 19, 1941)
[From: Run to the Mountain. The Journals of Thomas Merton. Volume One, 1939-1941]